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by @anarchyroll

Two years and two hundred books. Well technically four years and technically between one hundred and fifty books and one hundred and eighty books. Oh, and they’ve all been audio books with one exception. But that one I later listened to the audio book version as well. My journey into the philosophical/spiritual/self help/self actualization realm of study started with a public breakdown on an elevated train in September of 2009. I like a good portion of the adult male population in America was scared of rejection. On this night however, I went all out, trying to meet and talk to any and every woman I saw whom I was attracted to. My level of self pride was at an all time high by fighting through my fear and taking action. The only thing that was bigger than my feeling of pride, was the number of times I was rejected that night.

It was a living nightmare for me that night. It only could have been worse if we were in quiet environments and more people heard the rejection, after rejection, after rejection, after rejection…..after rejection. I literally felt my will break, I felt something inside my head snap.  I remember the look on my face wide eyes, open mouth, I looked horrified, because I was. I don’t remember when exactly I started crying, whether it was on the train, during the walk back to my friend’s apartment, or in the apartment but I know I started crying. I started crying hard. I remember apologizing to my friends. I remember walking very fast if not running back to my car which was parked a couple of blocks away since we were in Chicago. I was wearing a white striped dress shirt with khaki colored baggy cargo pants, but all I could see was red, and all I felt was blackness.

My self esteem, confidence, and image had been very low for a very long time going into that night. My emotionally stability was suspect at best. My maturity and ability to respond to adversity/failure were both very much undeveloped. That night’s events was the wrecking ball being brought into the building already abandoned after a fire.  Painful to experience but necessary for something better to be built upon it. I remember getting close to my car and hearing my name in the distance. It got louder and louder until I realized whose voice it was, that of one of my friends who I was with. He calmed me down and gave me a pep talk. I remember telling him that I felt like I was destined to be alone. He told me he could help.

I vaguely remember him telling me about some books and audio recordings that helped him with the same situation I was dealing with. A few days later he dropped a usb drive off at my work with a bunch of e books, audio books, and audio recordings of live seminars. He told me before the first thing I needed to read or listen to was The Game by Neil Strauss. I was completely blown away by what I read. That book genuinely changed my life by instigating multiple paradigm shifts of how I viewed myself, how I viewed other people, and how I viewed the world at large. The changes were not fast, at the time I was a slow learner and an even slower reader. That book on social dynamics and pick up artistry is what started me on the path to not just listening to audio books on a daily basis, but much more importantly it showed me that I could enjoy the process of learning.

The Game led me to audio books, recordings, and videos on the subject of social dynamics. Those lead me to look into Eckhart Tolle and after that the flood gates were never getting closed. My thirst for knowledge reached unquenchable levels as did my fines for returning books late to my local library. My mind was getting melted and blown on a weekly basis. Terms like principles, paradigms, choice, integrity, courage, character, right action, silence, energy, universe, dynamic, actualization, present, awareness, soul, ego were either introduced or redefined to me in ways I had no perception of. My life was forever changed for the better. I would become proficient in the fields of philosophy, spirituality, personal development, and self actualization and it all started with a public breakdown, a friend reaching out to help, and a book about how to meet women.

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by @anarchyroll
August 31, 2013

What is Stimulus Space Response? On the lighter end of the spectrum, it is a term in communication theory within the symbolic interactionism concept. On the heavier end, in the philosophical world, it is what makes us uniquely human, it is what separates us from animals. How? Because unlike animals we have a space between what happens to us and our response to what happens to us, therefore we can utilize our inherent freedom of choice on how to use that space AND how to respond to what has happened to us.

What makes us uniquely human? That is pretty heavy if you ask me. Shout out to the opposable thumb. If one wanted to take a scientific view I’m sure there are other specific parts of the brain and human anatomy that make us uniquely human. Hey, if you know what they are, write a blog about them 🙂  The purpose of this blog is for me to write about what I have learned in my studies of philosophy, spirituality, self improvement, personal development, and self actualization.

Reading books and more frequently listening to audio books by Napoleon Hill, Charles Haanel, Andrew Carnegie, Dale Carnegie, Stephen Covey, Tony Robbins, Richard Bandler, Deepak Chopra, Wayne Dyer, Eckhart Tolle and others have all had profoundly positive effects on my life. I want to share the information, what I have learned, how I have applied the lessons, and how I think others can benefit from the general principles that the authors write about. I also feel that writing about the material, what I learned, and how I changed will provide an additional layer of evolution to my growth. Lastly, these philosophy/spirituality/self help blogs serve as an additional layer of a five part media writing portfolio I am building.

I would like to combine all five blogs into one website and present the material like a digital newspaper/magazine akin to VICE, Huffington Post, and The Guardian. The other blogs will be about hard news/journalism, business/economics, pro wrestling/mma, and sports. These are all subjects I am passionate about and would like to become a professional reporter/writer of. I received my bachelor’s degree in media communications from Northeastern Illinois University this past May. I want to make sure that I am applying what I have learned, that I am keeping my writing skills sharp, that I am staying productive as a person, and that I am working towards my overall goal achievement desires.

Without the books and authors I will be writing about in this blog I would be lost. I would not have graduated from university, I would not know who I am, or what I want in life. I would confuse being a consumer of material goods with purpose. I would confuse my friends and family with my enemies. I would confuse personality for character. I would confuse tasks with goals and activity with achievement. I would confuse my schedule with my priorities. I would confuse my comfort zone with my lot in life. I would confuse nervousness with excitement. I would confuse my ego with my soul.

I believe a lot of people have the same confusions, and I personally know many who do as well. I do not confuse myself with a guru or a qualified teacher. I am at present, very much, an amateur. But I aspire to be a professional. Jeff Bridges, a philosopher of Dudeism recently said on an episode of The Nerdist podcast that being a professional means “doing it even when you don’t feel like it.” My mind and body started tingling when I heard that. It felt like a missing piece of my mental/emotional puzzle had been dropped into my lap. This blog, as well as my others are me taking an additional step towards being a professional writer. The material I will be writing about in this blog helped me to lay the foundation internally for which I will be building upon externally with my writing.

I want to help, I believe I can help. I may be an amateur but I can help you by being a reblogger of philosophical/spiritual/self help information. Welcome to Stimulus Space Response, I look forward to our journey together.