I want to write about this subject because, despite years of meditation, personal development, journaling, yoga, philosophy, and spirituality, when I get pressed, I still find myself acting out of ego.

I judge people. I think negatively. I feel bad. My mind races. I replay negative situations over and over. I get vulgar, angry, hostile, and negative.

Being older now, and having studied philosophy and spirituality for almost two decades, and consumed personal development content for twenty years, I know that this doesn’t make me inferior or unique — it makes me human. And I want to share this with others. It’s okay to be human. It’s okay to screw up. Negative events don’t define who we are.

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A negative outburst doesn’t define me. Doing the wrong thing doesn’t define me. Failing to practice what I preach doesn’t define me. It makes me a human being.

That’s why I study philosophy. It’s why I have a spirituality practice. It’s why I meditate. It’s why I study humanist personal development. It’s why I’m drawn to neuroscience.

We all struggle with these challenges, and I want to explore how ego-driven anger is something we all experience, especially in today’s world.

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The Hidden Role of Ego in Anger

The ego — the sense of self that fuels our need for validation, control, and superiority — often hides in plain sight. It shows up in negative judgments, reactive thoughts, and moments of anger. But it’s not always the loud, brash ego we imagine. Sometimes it’s the quiet voice that whispers, “I deserve better,” or “I’m right and they’re wrong,” feeding our emotions and judgments without us even realizing it.

“Your anger and annoyance are more detrimental to you than the things themselves which anger or annoy you,” — Marcus Aurelius

Philosophy: The Stoic and Taoist View of Ego

Stoicism teaches us to observe our emotions without judgment — to step back and recognize that we are not our anger. Taoism, on the other hand, encourages letting go of resistance and embracing the natural flow of life.

“Knowing others is intelligence; knowing yourself is true wisdom.”— Lao Tzu

Spirituality: Understanding Ego through Mindfulness

Spiritual practice, especially mindfulness, offers a direct experience of observing the ego. Buddhism teaches that anger arises from attachment to the self and from clinging to identity and righteousness.

“When we let go of the need to be ‘right,’ we allow the ego to dissolve on its own, like a drop of water evaporating in the sun.” — Thich Nhat Hanh

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Intellect and Neuroscience: How the Brain Reinforces Ego

Science has begun to confirm what ancient philosophies intuited long ago. Our brain’s default mode network — active when we’re ruminating or imagining — fosters ego identity. The brain rewards validation and recognition, making it easy to get stuck in ego-based loops, even when we know better.

Humanism: Embracing Our Humanity

The humanist approach is rooted in self-compassion. We don’t grow by shaming ourselves — we grow by understanding and responding with care. To be human is to be imperfect.

“The curious paradox is that when I accept myself just as I am, then I can change.” — Carl Rogers

Ego Is a Messenger

Ego-based anger is part of the human condition — especially in a fast-paced, comparison-driven society. We don’t need to destroy our ego. We just need to recognize when it’s taking the wheel. That recognition alone is a kind of freedom.

Next time the anger hits, ask: “Is this my ego speaking?”
Pause. Breathe.
Try to let that moment of awareness be enough.

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Systemic Cruelty Dressed Up as Policy


Like slavery and apartheid, poverty is not natural. It is man-made and it can be overcome and eradicated by the actions of human beings. — Nelson Mandela (earth.org)



Criminalization of Survival

Across the United States, cities are treating the act of survival—sleeping, sitting, asking for help—as criminal behavior. These punitive “sit-lie” laws, camping bans, sweeps, and aggressive policing do not solve homelessness—they entrench it.

The National Homeless Law Center notes that criminalizing homelessness punishes life-sustaining activities and makes it “more difficult to escape” homelessness (homelesslaw.org). Human Rights Watch calls Los Angeles’s enforcement “cruel and ineffective,” targeting the visible poor rather than root causes (hrw.org).

And the National Alliance to End Homelessness found in a 2025 report that criminalization fails to enhance safety and instead deepens racial inequities (endhomelessness.org).


Welfare as Surveillance

What was once a safety net has become a web of surveillance and moral judgment. Welfare recipients often face drug testing, work mandates, and algorithmic gatekeeping. The state spends more money building systems to punish “fraud” than the fraud itself.

The broader trend is summed up in the concept of the criminalization of poverty—fines, anti-homeless laws, welfare policing—all disproportionately penalize people for behaviors tied to economic status (en.wikipedia.org).


Bipartisan Neglect

From Clinton’s “end of welfare as we know it,” to Republican austerity, to performative pandemic relief—both parties have abandoned structural solutions. Poverty remains a prop for campaigns, a scapegoat for policy failures.

The trajectory is clear: LBJ’s 1964 War on Poverty drastically reduced poverty, but the programs were retrenched in the decades that followed (en.wikipedia.org). As the New Yorker observed, “the retrenchment of the social-welfare state went hand in hand with the rise of the prison and policing state” (newyorker.com).


Policy as War

This isn’t side-effect cruelty—it’s intentional. Austerity is meticulously planned: sprawling military budgets and corporate bailouts while school lunches vanish, shelters shrink, and Medicaid is constantly threatened.

Anti-homeless laws that target sitting, sleeping, begging, and even sharing food are not about solving poverty—they’re about making the poor less visible (en.wikipedia.org).


Turning Cruelty into Care

Poverty isn’t inevitable—it’s policy. But if it’s made, it can be unmade.

Everyday Direct Care

  • Support mutual aid groups, solidarity kitchens, street medicine teams, and eviction defense networks.
  • Donate to or volunteer with organizations that protect civil rights for the unhoused, such as those advancing a Homeless Bill of Rights (en.wikipedia.org).
  • Choose ways to help that don’t rely on surveillance or punishment, but on trust and dignity.

Local Policy Pressure

  • Demand that local officials defund homeless sweeps and redirect funds to housing-first programs, mental health care, and tenant protections.
  • Organize for the passage of Homeless Bills of Rights in your state or city.
  • Pressure city councils and state legislatures to prioritize affordable housing budgets over police budgets.

State & National Strategy

  • Advocate for restoring and expanding War on Poverty–era programs like Head Start, expanded tax credits, and affordable housing investments.
  • Oppose laws that subject welfare recipients to invasive surveillance, drug testing, or punitive work requirements.
  • Build alliances that prioritize social infrastructure over military expansion or corporate subsidies.

This is the real choice: treat poverty as crime, or treat it as solvable. The first path guarantees endless war on the poor. The second path builds a society worth living in.


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The act of beginning again is itself the practice — not a flaw in the process, but the process. We tend to think of starting over as something reserved for mistakes or failures, as if it’s a sign we’ve strayed off course. But what if beginning again is actually the most honest course we can take?

Every breath is a reset. Every day we wake up alive is a quiet invitation to try once more — this time with a little more clarity, a little more compassion, a little less ego. We are not meant to stay in motion uninterrupted. We are meant to pause, to question, to recommit. To begin again is not weakness. It’s wisdom.

This idea — that beginning again is not a detour but the path itself — is something the Stoics understood deeply. To them, each moment was a fresh opportunity to align with reason, virtue, and the present.


“You could leave life right now. Let that determine what you do and say and think.” — Marcus Aurelius


The urgency here isn’t morbid — it’s motivational. It’s a call to reset with intention, without needing a grand reason. Just the present moment is reason enough. Focusing on what I have control over, in the present moment, and then taking action with a sense of urgency is a balanced approach to life that Stoicism has brought to my attention many times.

Where Stoicism urges us to meet the moment with discipline, Taoism invites us to meet it with ease. If the Stoics offer a firm hand on the tiller, the Tao offers an open palm to the wind.


“Nature does not hurry, yet everything is accomplished.” — Lao Tzu


There’s wisdom in allowing our return — our beginning again — to unfold naturally, like water finding its path downhill. Taoism helps to take the weight off our backs and reduce the pressure we put on ourselves.

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Taoism teaches us to flow, but Buddhism teaches us to see. To see the moment clearly, without clinging or resistance. In the Buddhist view, every beginning is just part of the great cycle of arising and passing away. The breath in. The breath out. There is no need to carry the weight of yesterday when the present is already enough.


“Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most.” — Buddha


These ancient philosophies of nature and simplicity feel more vital than ever in a world shaped by constant productivity, curated identities, and hustle culture. Internally and externally, we’re pressured to do more, be more, and prove our worth through performance.

That pressure often leads to stagnation, analysis paralysis, and burnout. But revisiting these timeless teachings — ones that predate democracy and capitalism — offers calming reassurance. It reminds us that what we’re feeling isn’t failure. It’s human. And it makes beginning again feel not only acceptable, but natural.

Returning to the present — the Stoic, Taoist, and Buddhist invitation to simply be — also finds support in modern psychology and neuroscience. Where ancient wisdom speaks in metaphors and mantras, contemporary science offers data and neural pathways.

Dr. Andrew Huberman often reminds us that real change begins not with motivation, but with action. Tiny, repeated actions reshape the brain through neuroplasticity. So even when the mind says, “Why bother starting over?” the body can respond, “Because this is how we grow.”

Science may explain how we change, but philosophy still asks us why. Why return to a craft, a calling, a version of yourself you once abandoned?

The answer, I’ve found, is rarely logical. It’s personal. It’s emotional. Because I’m a person and people aren’t logical, we are emotional beings.

Sometimes it’s a whisper — other times a reckoning. But whatever shape it takes, it’s a form of recommitment. Not to some imagined perfection, but to the values and curiosities that make us feel most alive.


“You’re under no obligation to be the same person you were five minutes ago.” — Alan Watts


All of this — the philosophy, the science, the stillness — eventually brought me back to something simple but easy to forget: the quiet power of recommitment. Not a dramatic restart. Not a brand-new version of me. Just a returning.

A choice to keep showing up, to remember what matters most, and to walk toward it again, even if slowly. I’ve realized it’s not about being perfectly consistent. It’s about being consistently willing to try — to give whatever effort you have in you, in the moment.


There will always be reasons to delay the return — doubt, fear, the feeling that we’ve waited too long. But the truth is, we don’t need permission to begin again. Not from others, and not even from our past selves.

The beginner’s mind is the bravest mind. The moment we choose to return — to a habit, a purpose, a part of ourselves — we’re already on the path. Whether it’s through meditation, journaling, movement, or simply pausing to take a breath, there are so many ways to come home to yourself. Whichever path you take, just know this: beginning again doesn’t make you a beginner. It makes you human. It makes you brave.

How manufactured distraction masks elite power grabs



“The most potent weapon in the hands of the oppressor is the mind of the oppressed.” — Steve Biko


We’re not fighting each other.

We’re being told we are.

While billionaires rig markets, write laws, and extract more than ever before, we’re fed a diet of distraction: who wore what, who said what, who to cancel, who to worship.
Culture wars and celebrity scandals dominate the headlines. Political rage becomes entertainment. Reality is replaced with performance.

Meanwhile, real decisions get made in rooms we’re not in.


Distraction is strategy.

Bread and circuses is policy.

The phrase comes from ancient Rome. Give the people food and entertainment, and they’ll ignore the empire crumbling around them.
Today’s version isn’t lions and gladiators. It’s 24/7 news cycles, viral beef, televised outrage, algorithmic dopamine, and the myth that “both sides” are the problem.

But both sides serve the same class.
The one you’re not in.


“The purpose of the modern media is to make the public passive and distracted, not informed and engaged.” – Glenn Greenwald


Who benefits from distraction?

Follow the money.

Culture wars don’t threaten capital.
They serve it.
If we’re busy hating each other, we’re not organizing. If we’re bickering about bathrooms, we’re not taxing billionaires. If we’re glued to gossip, we’re not watching the war profiteers, the surveillance state, or the bought politicians signing our futures away.

Distraction is not a side effect. It’s the point.


Manufactured chaos is cover.

Power prefers shadows.

The more noise, the less clarity.
The more conflict, the less unity.
The more fear, the more control.

Every celebrity trial, every TikTok feud, every political theater act keeps us from looking up. Keeps us consuming, not questioning. Arguing, not organizing.


“The press is not a watchdog. It’s a tool used by the powerful to manage public opinion.” – Matt Taibbi


We don’t need more sides.

We need more sight.

Start with the question: Who does this serve?
When the story goes viral, when the talking heads scream, when the rage is addictive—ask it again:
Who benefits from our attention being here?
Because the real theft isn’t always money.
Sometimes, it’s focus.


“You are being made to focus on the sideshow, while the tent burns down.” – Edward Snowden


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The challenge of maintaining awareness of our thoughts is a fundamental aspect of human experience. Our minds are hardwired to think and become lost in thought streams constantly.

However, awareness of our thoughts and the ability to open our minds is crucial for personal growth and mental well-being. By revisiting this concept, we can continually remind ourselves of its importance and strive to live more consciously.


Many, if not most, people are completely identified with their thoughts and emotions. Despite meditating and studying philosophy and spirituality for ten years, I still slip into identification with my thoughts and emotions. I have often found myself dragged into petty thoughts and judgmental emotions.

Even though I take multiple actions habitually to counteract negativity such as:

  • reading philosophy
  • meditating
  • journaling
  • taking mood support supplements
  • doing yoga
  • walking outside
  • getting around eight hours of sleep
  • hydrating
  • drinking herbal tea
  • lifting weights
  • eating healthy meals
  • watching self-improvement videos on YouTube
  • listening to binaural beats
  • limiting screen time

I still constantly identify with my thoughts, emotions, and life situations.

Becoming aware of our thoughts, breaking free from identifying with them, and opening up the mind are important subjects to me. Worth coming back to again and again. Because it is an inner fight we all must wage again and again if we are to live a life of inner peace.

Typically, awareness of our thoughts is not the norm — automatic thoughts usually dominate. In cognitive psychology, automatic thoughts are rapid, often unconscious assumptions or conclusions that arise in response to a situation or stimuli. They appear without conscious effort and are usually brief, immediate interpretations of an event, often with a negative bias.

“Thoughts are like clouds in the sky. Sometimes it’s clear, sometimes it’s cloudy. But don’t get attached to the clouds.” — Thich Nhat Hanh

Automatic thoughts often lead to runaway thoughts, which are longer and more intense versions of automatic thoughts. A consistent double dose of automatic and runaway thoughts can likely result in cognitive distortions, confirmation biases, and intense emotional triggers.

Observing social media and the modern world, it seems more people are easily triggered when their confirmation bias, built on cognitive distortions, is challenged or broken. A clear example is the state of America after a presidential election.


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“It is not what happens to you that troubles you, but your judgment about what happens.” — Epictetus


Identifying with our thoughts means being consumed by them. Our true selves get swallowed up and erased due to constant states of stress, anxiety, disappointment, depression, and anger. We can’t escape fight-or-flight survival mode if we are constantly pulled into the rushing stream of automatic and runaway thoughts.

We must continuously choose to be aware and detach from our thought streams because our thoughts never stop. Our minds are thinking machines, but they do not define who we are. We are not our minds. We are not our thoughts. We are not our emotions. We must constantly cultivate awareness and remind ourselves of this truth.

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Practical ways to practice awareness include mindfulness, which involves being fully focused on the present moment. Deep breathing exercises and guided meditations have also significantly helped me in my ongoing effort to increase awareness in my life. Journaling is beneficial as well, provided you consistently write and periodically review past entries to observe your patterns and progress.

Cultivating awareness of our thoughts while remaining detached from them can create an opening in the mind. The more we expand that opening with healthy practices like mindfulness, yoga, journaling, meditation, and studying philosophy and spirituality, the better we become at utilizing that inner space.

This helps us avoid reacting automatically to stimuli like an animal and instead respond thoughtfully and consciously. By embracing these practices, we can strive to live with greater mindfulness and peace, continually growing and evolving in our journey of self-awareness.